Tuesday, 26 May 2009


Today has been one of those days where I've had tonnes of work to do but no motivation to do it.
I have a video to make and a portfolio to go over, but I've hardly done anything.
I need to go to Staples.
Night at the Museum is on.
I've got my interview at East London tomorrow.
I'm quite nervous.
I need this.

Tuesday, 19 May 2009

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

I need help.

Monday, 11 May 2009


I feel like I'm losing hold of everything.
Losing control.
I know I need to let go for things to be fine.
But I'm scared that if I let go I'll lose everything.
All this distance is really getting to me.
That and not knowing my futture.
I think that if I knew what was happening next year, if I was certain that things would be okay then maybe I woudln't be so stressed and worrying.
I woudln't be messing everything up.
I just need to be paitent and hope.
I need to let go.

Friday, 8 May 2009


I'm getting really nervous now.
I'm not sure if I could take all rejections.

Chelsea Foundation: REJECTED
Chelsea BA Fine Art: REJECTED
Camberwell Foundation: REJECTED
UEL BA Fine Art: Yet to get an interview
London Met BA Fine Art: Application yet to be sent off.

I don't know what I'm going to do if I get all rejections.

Saturday, 2 May 2009


Not long left till I'm bacvk where I belong.
This weekend is going to be lovely.

I can't wait.

This made me smile, well the last bit did.

"No he's American and a boy."

Friday, 1 May 2009


I feel so much better.
It's a miracle what watching The Notebook can do to you.